Never Enough

Without Him...
These hands could hold the world, but it’ll never be enough, for me. Never, Never!
If I was King Solomon with three hundred wives, the Golden Wedge of Ophir, and worldwide fame for wisdom...

It would never be enough.
It would not fill the need.
It would still be unfulfilling.
It’ll never be enough... for me!

My need is infinite.
I am infinite.
Something finite cannot fill an infinite need.
Something temporary cannot fill a permanent void.
A drop of water cannot fill the oceans of all the earths in the Universe.
My existence is infinite, and only something infinite can fill it.

“...one... finds all that is not eternal too short, all that is not infinite too small.”
Stanford University Chapel

I need a line but the world gives me a segment.
I need endless oceans but the world gives me a cup of water.
I need worlds without number but the world gives me seven and a half acres.
I need the riches of eternity but the world gives me a thousand dollars a day.
I need emotional fulfillment but the world gives me ten minutes of bliss.
I need eternal joy but the world gives me seasons in the sun.
I need to create worlds but the world gives me some wood and nails.
I need infinite posterity but the world gives me a handful of children.
I need eternal life but the world gives me a hundred years.

I’m grateful for the food, water, land, money, work, posterity and years, but my heart isn’t set on them -- I’ll take whatever I get. My heart is changed. I am changed. I no longer desire the things of the world. I’m no longer filled with the lusts of the eyes. All that I see, hear, touch, smell, and experience is nothing to me. It can’t hold me. I’m not of this world. I live here in prison, and I don’t care about any of it. My sight is on what is outside the temporal, beyond the mortal, bigger than all I see, infinite and eternal.

I want God. I want to know Him. I want to see Him, to be filled with His Spirit. I want to know all there is in Heaven. I want to see kingdoms. I want to understand creation. I want to know why. I seek goodness, the will of God. I only need Jesus Christ, to talk of Him, to worship Him, and to bring others to Him. I care about love, peace, joy, happiness, charity, faith, hope, and all that is Eternal. I long for wholeness, to be re-connected with my Father through His only begotten Son. I am His son, in every sense of the word. I want priesthoods, dominions, glories, kingdoms, powers, and exaltations. I will not ever care for less. The world holds nothing for me. I don’t care about anything temporal, mortal, or carnal -- it’s all waste... refuse... garbage... junk... useless... vanity of vanities, everything under the sun is vanity. These hands could hold the world, but it’ll never fill my heart. It’ll never meet my needs. It’ll never be enough!  Never! Never! NEVER ENOUGH, FOR ME!